It's been a long time

I'm supposed to be studying now.

My usual line.

I'm doing the psychometry test for reasons that sound
good but for no reason of actually wanting to do
it.The studying for it has also helped me gain a new
level of not wanting to learn.

I want to be more like Ele, so open and willing to
learn. I think i used to be like that once, but I seem
to have built a disinterested and apathetic and
protective wall around myself. I feel so jaded
sometimes. It's probably the result of too much tv.

For all the people that this post depresses, I 'm not
sorry. It makes me feel better to talk about it than
to live it. Or does it?
Don't read it if it depresses you.